“If I’m killed, I’ll be with Jesus.” – Ninoy Aquino, smiling, to Charles Colson
Every August 21, we mark the day Ninoy Aquino was gunned down on the tarmac – a moment that cracked open the soul of a nation and lit the fuse of People Power. But beyond the yellow ribbons, the grainy footage, and the political debates, there’s a quieter Ninoy I met – not in person, but in spirit. Not through headlines, but through an old book I stumbled upon in a dusty Booksale outlet. That’s where I found a quote that changed everything for me: “If I’m killed, I’ll be with Jesus.”
It wasn’t just a line. It was a revelation. And its significance was buried – ignored by the secular press, dismissed by the political pundits, and forgotten by a nation too busy arguing over whether Ninoy was a hero or a schemer. But to me? He was something else entirely.
Born Again in a Prison Cell
In a chance encounter aboard a plane, Ninoy met Charles Colson – the Watergate convict turned Christian author. Their conversation, recorded in Colson’s Kingdoms in Conflict, revealed a Ninoy few had ever known. Bitter, broken, and betrayed in prison, Ninoy had reached the end of himself. His mother sent him Colson’s memoir Born Again, and something enkindled. He devoured the Bible. He wept. He knelt. And in that prison cell, he surrendered his life to Jesus Christ.
It wasn’t political. It wasn’t strategic. It was personal. It was spiritual. It was real.
Like Colson, Ninoy found strength in surrender. He discovered joy in brokenness. And he emerged from that cell not just with a renewed sense of purpose – but with peace. The kind of peace that lets a man smiled and say, “If I’m killed, I’ll be with Jesus.”
A Grain of Wheat Must Fall
I, too, have once walked that path. As I shared in my ATABAY article The Old Has Passed Away, The New Has Come, my own conversion came not in prison cell, but in a vault of pride – career, resumé, family, success, all neatly stacked. Until crisis cracked it open. Until an imagined imminent mortality stared me down. Until I fell like a grain of wheat to the ground.
That journey transformed me. It helped me see Ninoy differently - not through the lens of politics, but through the heart of shared spiritual kinship.
A Nation Divided, A Legacy Remembered
Today, our nation is torn – not by bullets or bayonets, but by hashtags and headlines. By Facebook memes and social media charges. By a war of words that rages not in the streets, but in the comment sections of our collective consciousness.
On one side stand the pro-DDS, the Duterte Diehard Supporters, still fiercely loyal to the extrajudicial killing legacy of the former president. They speak of discipline, order, and the kind of leadership that doesn’t flinch in the face of bloodbath. For them, strength is virtue, and silence is complicity.
On the other side rises the pro-BBM (Bongbong Marcos) camp, rallying behind the son of a former dictator, now rebranded in the hues of unity. They speak of moving on, of revising history. For them, legacy is inheritance, and redemption is a family affair.
And then, at the periphery – but never silent – are the Pinkalawans, the remnants of the opposition, the torchbearers of the EDSA spirit. They speak of truth, transparency, and the moral compass of democracy. For them, memory is sacred, and forgetting is betrayal.
Each camp claims patriotism. Each camp claims the future. And in the middle stands Pinoy – bewildered, battered, and bombarded by narratives that clash louder than a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal in a marching band.
Two Facets of Ninoy’s Legacy
Marking the direful day Ninoy was assassinated, all sides – despite their differences – spare no effort in flipping through his legacy.
On one side, the orthodox view portrays Ninoy as a calculating figure – seeing in his return to Manila a bold opportunity to succeed Ferdinand E. Marcos Sr. It suggests ambition as his compass, risk as his currency.
On the other side, the quintessential view honors Ninoy as a martyr whose assassination ignited national outrage and sowed the seeds of democracy. His death, awakened a sleeping nation and gave birth to a movement.
Thus, Ninoy – on one side, an opportunist; on the other, a hero.
But in the cacophony of debate, I choose a different lens. I choose to see Ninoy not through the eyes of politics, but through the eyes of faith.
He was a man who suffered. A man who surrendered. A man who found Jesus in the darkest of places. And when he stepped off that plane in 1983, he wasn’t just returning to Manila. He was walking into destiny – with peace in his heart and Jesus in his lips: “If I’m killed, I’ll be with Jesus.”
He Is My Brother
As we remember Ninoy, I’ll whisper a prayer for a man who showed me that faith isn’t just for the pulpit – it’s for the prison cell, the political arena, the tarmac, and the heart of every Pinoy searching for meaning.
Ninoy wasn’t perfect. None of us are. But he was reborn. And in that rebirth, he found courage, clarity, and conviction. That’s the Ninoy I know. That’s the Ninoy I honor.
And that is the legacy I choose to remember.
He is my brother.
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